(I was rushing somewhere b4 i culd finish my previous tots)

FOr now i juz like to go swimming, jogging, read boks or even shop and travel alone and yes.. i dun feel lonely... (I tk God for this gift of singlehood i had now) I sometimes even prefer not to go out in grps cos i feel it's very restrictive. I LIKE FREEDOM. (maybe it sounds like abit "zi bi zhen" here wahaha) I oso think it's hard to maintain a r/s... whether isit frenship or BGR... MAybe i can say that i'm a coward cos i really dun like to dare to face e facts of r/s which oso brings occasional disputes, misunderstandings... wateva. I think it's hard and tedious to go thru the process. I mean diff ppl hav diff ideas of how they look at things so there's BOUND to hv abrasions. I think i'm better of living my life as a bachelor. Wahahas... (i even tot of becoming a monk b4 i became a christian!) BUt i dun mind having children though... They're so cute and pure... WHY DO HV HV TO GROW UP TO FACE ALL THESE.. miss my childhood innocent days.

Also i wana say the another reason of me not giving BGR a bit of tot is, I'm too poor.. I mean i cant even support myself, why wuld i wan another person to suffer with me? FOr me, i juz had this TRADITIONAL mindset that i wan a gf and 1 only gf... And i wan to support and provide for the gal i love. (cos i know how my mum feels when she had to work so hard to provide for us)I wana make her feel happy. All these i can only accomplish once i go out into the working world and start earning $$. Tt's wat i feel. SOmeone mother once said to me,"Guys no need to worry abt not being able to find gf.. as long as the guy has a career!" MAybe it's true cos i wuld see on the streets, the guy not very good looking(like me) then their spouse or gf very pretty de... SOmething like "xian hua cha zai niu fen shang". SO there's still hope for me. Wahahas

I did a simple personality test a few weeks ago and the results show that i wuld like to get myself gain alot of experiences or accomplish alot of things 1st b4 i start looking for a gf. Wahaha.. how true for me. Cos i feel that once i get a gf, i cant hv the time to accomplish wat i really wana do and i CANT neglect her! I know i'm the sort of person who'll surely neglect de. (unless i really blessed enough to find a gal who has the same goals as me. THen can do togther... how sweet.)

Tt's why i always like to see those sweet couples together... I envy them n i congratulate them. SOme of my frens got tog really is bcos of true love.. and they hv been tog for very long.. These sort of encourages me cos at least there's still love ard. Somthing i can still force or comvince myself to believe.